4 months…
We just got off the phone 2 hours ago…
You told me you had a girlfriend.
I don’t know how to feel right now.
Am i upset?
Am i angry?
I’m so confused.
It felt really good to hear your voice again.
And to laugh with you again.
But i didn’t want to know a thing about her.
The girl who has everything i don’t.
Including you.
Why am i not bawling?
I just have this overwhelming knot in my stomach.
We ended up having a good conversation.
But a lot of it had to do with the past.
Why you didn’t feel the same way about me as i did for you.
It all felt so strange to even be talking to you about it.
But it came out so naturally.
Of course there were some awkward moments.
You got silent a few times.
But as much as I’ve missed you and cried over you…
I’m not understanding why I’m not crying now.
Now that you’ve found someone.
Someone that can give you what you want.
Everything i couldn’t.
We both agreed that we wouldn’t reach out to each other for a few more months because of the obvious reasons presented during that phone call…
And for that i thank you.
I thank you for understanding that I’m still not ok.
That i had a moment of weakness and gave into my curiosity.
And that i need more time before i can be ok with anything that involves you.
I’m truly happy that you’re happy.
It feels really shitty.
But i can’t be mad.
I will always love you as a person.
But i need to fall out of love with you.
I don’t expect to hear from you for a while…
And that’s ok.
We’ll see where I’m at around then…
-Visa
3 months…
Yesterday marked 3 months
3 months of not seeing you
3 months of not talking to you
3 months of missing you.
Still.
Not a day has gone by where i haven’t thought about you.
Things are a lot easier now
But i still get anxious at the thought of possibly running into you.
I’ve cried a few times.
And i think that’s ok.
I’m not completely over it.
In some ways I’m really proud of myself
For sticking it out this long.
But i still can’t help but wonder
If you miss me too…
Do you ever think of me?
I hope you do.
I take little steps everyday to help me move on
But I’m still here missing you
And that’s ok
It’s progress.
Love, Visa.
you learn to take the little victories
I always got very excited when it would spell out ACDC
OMG SAME FOR BOTH
I always got very afraid when it was the same letter 4 times in a row
when I was 4 or 5, my mom was a prof at a college and she used to hand me the scantron sheet before she wrote the exam and let me colour whatever lettered bubble i wanted for each answer. if i coloured two by accident, she made an ‘all of the above’ option. one time she gave me it and i coloured the ‘a’ bubble for each of the 130 questions except for the second last one and she just went with it
later on, she told me that it was the most entertaining exam she had ever watched her students take
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Just seeing photos of this, I feel lucky.
blessed image, rb for good luck when you need it most
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